I am old graduate manage hardly 3-4 hrs

I am old graduate manage hardly 3-4 hrs a day to study and forgot most basics of step 1 I am spending a lot of time watching a video or manage one page of FA and feels confused I was thinking to apply on next year match which is impossible now with rate of studying I want to be realistic does it worth to study step 1 and the score is going to be pass/fail soon
Should I start with CK which can give me a push or am I lying to myself
Does really step 1 will make step 2 Ck easier and makes the score better as step 2 CK score now is the most imp
I really need honest opinions i am not sleeping have insomnia thinking a lot having crying episodes that I can’t control
Your help is appreciated